I don't know if it is too far gone, or if I should persevere. It feels too far, but I can't believe that there is no more me and you. I talk to you everyday in my head. Everything I do, I still see it through your lens, as if you were there watching over me.

I watched a movie today where one of the characters is talking about marriage, and he asks; "can you live without her? No? Then you must marry her." I don't think I can live without you. Maybe I will just live a half-life without you. One without the kindness and the joy that you gave me.

It is probably what I deserve.