I want you to know that I can see things clearly now. I can see what a horrible horrible person I've become. I am utterly ashamed of what I did, at every step along the way over the last 2 years. Every single time I thought about you, and there wasn't a day that went past that I didn't, I suppressed it. I suppressed the urge to love you, to open up to you, to do the right thing by you. Most of all, I suppressed the urge to provide for you, to mind you, to give you the love that I had for you, that I know you needed. 

I suppressed the urge to come back and just say yes its me, I love you and I miss you and I need you.